So, here I am as I unpack the past two years of my life, with vulnerability and no hesitations.
Currently - I am relaxing at home, in the Rio Grande Valley, spending time with my family. It is absolute bliss not having a care in the world (well, sort of). I am taking time for myself, recharging, appreciating myself. Current schedule: wake up, read, run errands (if any), gym, read, eat, repeat. No regrets because I know it will be busy, busy, busy come August when school starts for me.
Louisiana - you can read more about my feelings about teaching here, but my time in Louisiana ended up being a true blessing. I have a little cajun in my soul and I would not change the past two years of my life for anything.
Mon sha - the current man in my life. He was unexpected, like I met you once and mindlessly flirted landing my friends and I with a little something extra. As in, I went out with you thinking it would be a one time thing, a one week thing, a just-til-I-leave-in-May thing. I am not sure about a lot of things with him, but he makes sense right now. We are completely different, he likes black, I like white. He prefers classic rock and roll to my favorite Jason Aldean country song. I drink beer, he drinks....something else (ha!). He is nothing like anyone I have ever met in Louisiana, and that might be my favorite part. He's loyal, and kind, he's respectful, and means what he says. He has strong opinions, but is always willing to listen to the opinion of others. We are learning about each other, and I will keep y'all posted on how the test goes.
May 2011 - May 2012 - this was byfar the most difficult period in my
I went through a period of pure abstinence from men/dating/love, I was enjoying being single and learning to be me by myself and loving who I had always been. Somehow sometime between Seattle and the beginning of 2013 I learned to become lighter than I've ever been. I opened up a side of me I never have before. I did it with my students, so why shouldn't I do it in real life? Things that used to bother me as much just didn't, I became more vulnerable and open to love and new things. I told myself I would never again let a relationship get in the way of friendships, I would protect my heart, but without a fear to let others in. It's a process in the making, just ask my best friends :)
Now, commitment is something I have to work through. I'm talking long-term commitments. This is a fear I will talk about next time....
I am emotionally exhausted, as I'm sure you are too if you're still reading this. Off to paint my nails something other than "Cajun Shrimp" ;)
Tomorrow is Fashion Friday because I slacked on What I Wore Wednesday.
If you've been with me this entire time, have you seen me grow through this blog?